I have been lucky. I know it. I read others blogs and they remind me. I didn’t have to have surgery. I’m not committed to a wheelchair. I can communicate with my family. Hell, my family stuck around! Thank you family!
At just over 2 years since my stroke, I have reflected on all the things I’ve re-learned, had to learn, and had to leave behind.
I won’t ever be running or jogging. But that’s ok. I never really wanted to. I won’t, at least from this point in recovery, ever be totally comfortable in a group conversational setting.
But there are things that have improved! I don’t take the day-to-day so seriously. If something doesn’t get done, it’s not the end of the world. My family relationship, though always strong, has become stronger for me. I read so many stories about people who have had major medical life changing things happen, and their family just bails on them, unable to “deal with it”!
And then there are the things I have to still deal with, but hope will go away, but may not. I continue to have major drop foot on the right side unless I am wearing either my Walkaide or my AFO.
But the two biggest things that drive me nuts are trying to remain calm, and focus on conversations in a group setting. At this, I am almost “AWOL”. It’s just too hard to concentrate on one person speaking to me when others are talking around me.
The other thing, and this may be the biggest, is my lack of time. I will be in the store, and totally “zone out” looking at a small section of products. My husband will come looking for me and say something like, “It’s been 20 minutes. What are you looking at?” I usually have no idea.
Also, I have no reference to timing activities. Because of this, most things take MUCH longer to accomplish, if they get accomplished at all!